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The Day

aliveandbreathing — Mon, 14 Jun 2010 04:00:16 +0000

Calorie Bank: 1,600

Breakfast

Oatmeal (milk + oatmeal + half banana):300

Coffee: 60

Total calories: 360

Catch

aliveandbreathing — Mon, 19 Apr 2010 06:14:33 +0000

I’ve seen you on the train a few times. We act like strangers like we’ve never met before.

I think about you some days..

On my mind

aliveandbreathing — Mon, 19 Apr 2010 06:11:53 +0000

It’s been a while since I’ve thought of you but you came into my dreams last night. It was the strangest feeling. We were driving to your friend’s place and I reached over to hold your hand, only.. you hand your hands covered by your sleeve so there was this awkward moment and I decided to let go but you looked over, grabbed a hold of me. I didn’t know what to do. When we arrived at your friend’s house.. we got out of the car and I didn’t know whether I should come inside the house or wait for you outside so I opted to stand outside.

Not sure what this dream means but it’s been a while.

Then after that, we went to my old group’s birthday, celebrated the birthday of a girl who I haven’t said 1 word to for the past 3 years and we left.

I miss you, yeah I do.. and I find it unfair how you can see how i’m doing – how you know what i’ve become, who i am and i have missed everything in your life.

Do something.. tell me you miss me.. you’re always going to be that one person who means the world to me and nothing will change that

I love you, unconditionally.

More Than Anyone

aliveandbreathing — Fri, 18 Sep 2009 06:52:45 +0000

Honestly, I fall so easily, hard and fast, all in, etc.

And I fall out easily too.

I have been spending a little time with somebody who I had just met about a month ago. We were introduced through friends and I had their contact, left 2-3 messages and never got a reply but yesterday, we got a conversation rolling and it just made my day. I couldn’t stop smiling on the train, I couldn’t stop thinking about them when I got home, I was so careful with every word I said, I didn’t want to ruin anything. I was weak just everywhere.

I always want what I can’t have.

I have been in touch with somebody else who I don’t have any interest in. I can’t see myself with them but they’re putting everything out on the line and I don’t know what to do. I’ve learned in the past that it’s only in retrospect that you realise the opportunities and such. Maybe I’m expecting too much. Maybe I don’t know what I’ve got. Maybe I’ve got to lose them to see. I don’t get the same feeling, I don’t feel as strongly, I don’t like the age difference, etc. I’m talking myself out of it.

But you. You are just perfect, or at least the closest thing to perfect.

Wake Me Up When September Ends

aliveandbreathing — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 10:02:53 +0000

I’ve been spending my time with a handful of good friends of mine, reconnecting with two in particular from my past, working less, studying consistently, watching basketball whenever I get the opportunity to..

Right now, I feel like I’m starting to fall hard for someone who has been there for a year now. I can’t help but smile when they smile.

Just My Luck

aliveandbreathing — Thu, 30 Jul 2009 16:03:27 +0000

I need to get back on track.

I need to start counting calories, start exercising and start thinking positively.

I’ve suffered a sprain for the past 2 weeks, then when it has finally healed, I get the cold. Just my luck, isn’t it?

College has resumed for the semester. I need to start getting out there again and meeting new people.

I have a wedding to attend in 2 month’s time. All the more reason to get in shape.

To health, happiness, love, family, friends and all things that make for a blessed life.

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aliveandbreathing — Wed, 08 Jul 2009 01:52:29 +0000

Oatmeal (240)
Coffee (70)
Apple (50)
2 Monte (170)
= 530 calories so far…

Dinner is at my friend’s place for movie night which will be McDonald’s
Lean beef burger (280) or Filet o’Fish (no mayo) for (310)
+ 6 mcnuggets (300)

Friday June 26

aliveandbreathing — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 06:15:03 +0000

For some reason, I woke up today at 1PM. I went about my normal routine, ate breakfast, hit up some geeky web forums then my mom went off to run her daily errands but before she left, she told me Michael Jackson had passed away. I’ve never been comfortable with using the word “died” because it implies finality. I believe that when we leave this world, we head onto the next. It’ s such a shock and it makes me step back and look at the bigger picture, where I am and who I am.

Breakfast: oatmeal (240)

Lunch: coffee (60) + banana (100) + 2 slices wholemeal toasted (100) + cheese (35) + turkey (50) + biscuit (80) + 4 vitawheet biscuits

Total: 765 calories

Going out tonight for dinner, leaving about 650 calories to play with because we’re going to a steakhouse!!

Feeling like a jog in an hours time.

aliveandbreathing — Thu, 25 Jun 2009 09:33:14 +0000

Banana (90)

Oatmeal + milk + honey (240)

Coffee (60)

Lunch

McDonald’s (argh – I know)

McChicken burger (400)

Fries (350)

Orange juice (200)

Total calories: 1340

Exercise: 4 mile run (390 calories burned)

aliveandbreathing — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 08:54:23 +0000

Banana (100)

Oatmeal + milk + honey (240)

4 vitawheet crisps (100)

Coffee (60)

Turkey (50)

Dumplings (400)

Calories consumed: 950 calories

Dinner!

Exercise for the day: 2 mile run (200 calories)